Lyrics

As The Eyes of the Seahorse

If Words Were Birds

If words were birds that flew from my pen

And bent your heart to my every whim

I’d write till I bled as they fled to your post

To wing them inside as I wait for your ghost

If songs were as long in your ears as in mine

And floated you away like the last dandelion

seed in the world you’d happily find

Me humming with my head in the crook of your spine

Or my lips pursed deep in the rise of your chest

To melt away sighs and induce you with rest

From the cares that we share that whittle away

At the time that we have to marry our days.

If painting were waking dreams for your eyes

To follow and swallow and be beguiled by

Museums would imprison me till I had in my sight

How others made colors and oils burn bright

Without lighting them on fire

Like you lit me tonight

If you’d only show me what made you fall for me

That’s how my days would grey I won’t live any other way

I won’t let you go, I won’t let you go away

I won’t let you go, I won’t let you go away

What Will Become of Me?

I’m holdin my breath

So you don’t have to hold yours

Only sleeping through the day again

To get closer to you, of course

Where did all the air go?

The earth, the sun and the sea

If I’m becoming my dreams

What will become of me?

I’ll never see what you see

Never touch anything through your skin

Only sleeping through the day again

To find some new place to begin

Where did all the air go?

The earth, the sun and the sea

If I’m becoming my dreams

What will become of me?

Please give something to hold onto

Some pattern on which to adhere

Only sleeping through the day again

It’s all for nothing, I fear

Where did all the air go?

The earth, the sun and the sea

If I’m becoming my dreams

What will become of me?

I Was Never Loved

I was never loved before you

Not by anyone, the way I needed them to

And so I grew through the shade into the rays of your love

Saved to be seen for my truth

When the sky would dig into our hearts

With narrow eyes for the future

And lives for the ocean and skin for the shore.

When I hurt you when I hurt myself I’m asking for help to push the shadows out

Casting over my soul over everything I knew before you drew a smile in the corner of my mouth

When the sky would dig into our hearts

With narrow eyes for the future

And lives for the ocean and skin for the shore.

Why can’t I sever this memory that tethers me to myself

And release cast him off him let him fly free to haunt someone else

And be alone with you for ever and for better, no not for worse.

And be alone with you for ever and for better, anymore

What else is there if not forever?

All That We Had

I know nothing’s simple anymore

Our days as the eyes of the seahorse

to make one picture with our focus torn

words leave my mouth and enter your ears

Yet I can’t figure out what it is you hear

Some version of my biggest fear

But kiss me back when I kiss you

Kiss me when I make you mad

And when I’m so sad I can’t look at you

Maybe we’ll feel like we did when each other was all that we had

How to outlast the pressures that drown us?

To be stronger than the waters that surround us

Ride currents although they are dangerous

Our love gets twisted, gets corseted

Stuck in our chests, gets distorted

Till we don’t know which direction to head

But kiss me back when I kiss you

Kiss me when I make you mad

And when I’m so sad I can’t look at you

Maybe we’ll feel like we did when each other was all that we had

It’s easy to love me when I fall into bed

Easy to love me when there’s flowers in my head

But I need you to love me

I need you to love me

I need you to love me

When it’s hard to love me.

And to kiss me back when I kiss you

Kiss me when I make you mad

And when I’m so sad I can’t look at you

Maybe we’ll feel like we did when each other was all that we had

Ripe

Is it time we slip back in our skins?

With this bitter wind about to end

And stop pretending we can live as skeletons

And flesh each other out once again

If your love is forgiving,

Ready to open and find the sun

In its rays I’ll melt and we’ll become ripe

Now your smell is of the earth

Of salt and rain and blood and dirt

Your eyes say you’re as purposeful as a purse

Tap me like a vein until it hurts.

If your love is forgiving,

Ready to open and find the sun

In its rays I’ll melt and we’ll become ripe

Shimmering Lips

Shimmering lips quivering with tension

delivering words of love descending

Glistening eyes with tears of joy and fear so heavy you could hear them steer them to my heart.

Getting restless, getting ready

Your tongue goes cold, I feel it with mine, time grows long and gone we are we find to another plane that remains a haven for us to stay and tumble the day away

Getting restless, getting ready

And shelter comes in the shape of a dream

Of a river with a tide and you at my side

Dear friends gathered close, held tight against the rain

Burn in a cluster of hope

Which bursts like soap in a summertime bubble

When we kiss and stumble

With shimmering lips quivering

Another Lashing

The earlier the sunset

The easier it is to let

The covers be my lover

The colder the air

The sharper the stare

The more my courage wavers

I can’t take another lashing

Can’t take another lick

From these tongues that smart like wildfire

That make this city tick

The harsher the words

The more it occurs to me

To meet their mouth with mine

With kisses heavy

Wet and lovely

Choking their hate with lips entwined

I can’t take another lashing

Can’t take another lick

From these tongues that smart like wildfire

That make this city tick

Soft Soft Soft

Your face is so pretty, I’ve forgotten all my pain

Your mouth is so warm, to breathe would be a shame

My words are so dirty, they’ve got nothing on my mind

My fingers taste like ink, your bloods like turpentine

You’re so soft, soft, soft

All the way up

Your face is wound so tight, it’s a wonder you’re asleep

Perhaps it’s time to wake you, make you sticky like the sheets

The summer’s come and changed your skin

Your eyes become new again

My fingers taste like metal and into my chest you settle

You’re so soft, soft, soft

All the way up

Pouring down on you like sugar water, like sugar from the sky

Drink, drink, drink, sugar time in summer city

Private Pockets

Sorry my dear

I fear
When you shed your tears
In my chest
I did my best
To feel
But nothing was there
Now I’m scared that the wearing
My patience has taken
Will break and mistake-n
My love for you
To be
Some enemy
To be squeezed to death
By the heavy, heavy breath that carries us
From day to day

It hurts me so when you act like I don’t know you

Our fights leave wounds
We assume
Will close up
And melt away into the night
We can heal them
With wishes
And deep tongue kisses
But they open too soon
And the pain is now trite
It spikes like all patterns
It batters what matters to dust
And what’s real blows away
We need our dreams to wed
Like we did when we said forever
Feels so far away

It hurts me so when you act like I don’t know you

Builders

Today you are builders
Of pillars and of gates
With locks that may look like hearts
Others may look like shapes
So utterly confounding
Your heads may begin to ache
May begin to ache

And the architecture may get so tall
That you both begin to quake
But some pins will be left unlatched
Others will open with a shimmy or a shake
And if when you’re both standing tall the pillars begin to break
Know that no matter whose heavier the heart
You both fall at the same rate
You both land safe in the same place

I’ve little else to tell you
For I am just a child
When it comes to building
Oh, but I can use my eyes
And in my fawning, tumbling stages
They’ve grown sharper if not wise
They see a calm and peaceful happiness
In someone they have known their whole lives

There’s too much joy to come
Too much joy to come!

And your giddiness will shine over all of this
Soaking us in your loveliness leaving us with the remembrance that love is bigger than all of us but without us it would not exist oh its all too strange to understand so just stand there and hold hands and know that we love you as much as we can.

Virgin Mouth

These sheets reek with weeks
Of lust and fatigue
You could sharpen your teeth on the
Things that we need

But are fleeting the moment
Our feet hit the ground
And we drown in
Waves of days crashing down

We sink underwater
Blinking like stars
Garnering truth in
The Invisible parts

Where skin stops
And forever begins
Listen to the blood flow
Glowing with where we have been

I feel so displaced
This time is laced
with hope unbound from
The shackles of mistakes

From body aches and the
Sun spinning round

I’m Sounding like a virgin
Who’s never learned to use his mouth

Don’t let your thoughts be an undertow
Dragging us down

It’s all we can do to
Keep the water out

I Never Knew

I never knew that being in love would mean so many moments letting someone down
And I know that now
But I still jump in the water, I’m still am ready to drown

I never knew that being in love would mean watching myself turn into what I hate
Of realizing fate
But still I fall in the trap, I still go for the bait.

I must be sick
Or thick
Or whipped into thinking I’m not worthy of this
I love you so
It makes me wonder why I feel like- I will never know
How to be with you alone instead
Of sharing you with all this dread
That hangs around like shrouds inside my head
The heart is a muscle and to grow it must tear oh no but the trouble with hearts is they shrinks when their scared

I never knew that being in love would mean so many moments feeling alone and amiss
Of wanting to be kissed
My eyes are still too slow, I still fall for the trick

I never knew that being in love
Would mean seeing my mother each time my child cries
Right around the corners of the eyes
But I still break his heart just like I broke hers
All those times. But don’t you worry, they still gets to break mine.

It chills me to the quick
The taste of my own spit
Splitting these words on which I slip
To try to fit
Together tight as knit
Has nothing at all to do with synthesis
You bowl me over day after day
Still I find something bad to say
To make you shiver the night away wide awake
The heart is a muscle and to grow, it must tear oh no, but the trouble with hearts is they shrink when they’re scared

Beyond Your Control

Sitting by the river just angel boy and me
He kept handing me rocks in groups of three
(one for him, one for mama, one for me)
He’d point for me to throw them, impatiently
So he could see how big the world could be

All that’s beyond your control
Is not there to haunt you

Nicky, I didn’t bring you here to wet your eyes
A compromise at best, I’d even settle for a shy
Glimpse over your shoulder, or twist of you thigh
Do I still have the power to make you sigh?

All that’s beyond your control
Is not there to haunt you

Fears are like children
If they sit inside
They rot to the core
They stop wondering why
They were made to begin with
And eat you alive

Is our lot in life to be pulled like the tide
That sweeps ‘round our ankles
Like the breath of our child
Stirs up our worry
Each time he cries

Simon is was so much easier to hear your heart
When you were inside your mother, in the dark
When you were born I could see it through your skin like a spark
A sharp shape made of steel and stars

All that’s beyond your control
Is not there to haunt you.

Moment For The Future

Oh no, wet eyes
Here comes the shine
That made you mine

Stockpiles of hurt
Cast like a curse
You’re making it worse

And you feel so cheap
Swallowed in her
You feel incomplete
The shadow that lurks
Over your new year
Is getting so big
It’s bursting at the sutures
So why do you think you keep on trading the moment for the future

Laughter just burns
Breathing is churning
Your stomach in turn

Your mouth tastes so bad
Your Teeth are a drag
You make yourself gag

And you feel like this has happened before
Yes, You feel like you’ve woken up on this floor
Every morning since the day you were born
War torn with no clue you’re
Trading the moment for the future

I’ve got to start living my life better
Or at least get more selective in what I remember

What do you seek
Drink after drink
Till you can’t even think

Whispers are all you hear
Inside your ears
Inside your tears

You squeeze so hard
It’s leaving a bruise
You wait every day for some bit of news
To set you free but it never comes true
Why can’t you see nothing will be new
While you keep on trading the moment for the future.

Remember To Breathe

Remember to breathe
To steal the air to your blood
Let it build a peace
In your heart that will lift you up over the flood

Of the terror you thought was dissolved
It’s not salt in the water
It’s silt
And it rests at the bottom
Lurking inside you, ready to cloud your view

My head is so low
I keep missing the sky
It only shows
Is in reflections
Of pools of tears
That I cry

I don’t want to be a thief
Oh No, Not anymore
Running my recurring dreams
To recall a youth I’ve tried so hard to destroy

Shivering in the skin of myself as a child
Prying myself out of darkness
Begging the light to stream in and colors to fill my eyes
And leave me with the shining smile of flight

My heart is so low
It beats with a sigh
It keeps pumping though
With the hope that
It makes it through another night

My head is so low
I keep missing the sky
It only shows
Is in reflections
Of pools of tears
That I cry

Burn Like I Burn

When I dream of this place
It will start with your taste
And the fiery rush, the flush of your face

Then out to the shapes
Cut in the sky
If only for us to
Ache as we trace them

Then return to my hips
Cutting into your thighs
Where white disappears
deep into places

Softer than before
As skin sometimes does
If only to turn pink and be tasted

Oh, it’s been a long, lonely time
Since I’ve seen you shine

Is it that our love
Was too big to remain
inside of us
was far too big for two
to contain
and so from some darkened
place he was created
but he tasted love and wanted more than we had to give him
and now we’re hiding
no not searching for
what’s missing
searching for what got lost

how does love get lost?

And how will it feel
When the sky has gone grey
when the clouds appear dark as today??

And how will we peel
Away the brutally frayed moments of
Of kisses covered in tears

The sleepless hours
swallowed by the night
sheepish
breaths consumed by fear

And where is the time
Of the twinkling of stars
That has less to do with love
Than it has to do with hearts

Oh, Its been a long, lonely time
Of lonely nights
Spent side by side

If we keep opening
Oh no, not choking, I’m hoping
We can know that love is not something
that floats back from a far that it must be recreated
like before
That no hours that tower over our heads
can flower lets bow and be done with them
And I will shower you with pretty sonnets
like comets that burn as they
enter the atmosphere as shards
Of heat and of
Fire that sear when they touch
Like I burn when I enter you
Like I burn when I enter you.

All lyrics by Michael Kiley, Copyright 2008 M & M Free Music

Caterpillar-Cocoon-Butterfly

Cartwheels

Lost in infinite turns
Hiding inside of each other
Nesting like jaybirds

Magnetized, embracing our haste
Laughing in the face of
Tomorrow’s unfettered bravado

I am bound to your core
in willing absolutes
Closer than atoms

And when the pressure depresses your pleasure and censures your soul, your eyes cry in mine lovely and wide and sink into my heart like a stone and let in the size of it all.

The Part I Hate Most

This is the part I hate most
you’re already feeling like a ghost
a hostess escorting me to a table
filled with air
mirrors everywhere
for me to feast on this familiar infinity

perhaps this one time
I’ll look myself straight in the eye
and smile, laugh, even love
whats bouncing back at me
and not see these desperate eyes
searching for empathy

There’s something about this world thats so dark its beautiful
its a beauty that’s so hard to see when your gone

You always take with you the part that I like best
the rest is just testing the world
and all my immunities
seem to be so pointless and shallow
and I’m free to feel nothing but hollow

This is the part I hate most
When nothing we feel really shows
and the pressure of the precious lasting moments
explode into dirt and fog and we’ve blown another day just fighting about love

There’s something about this world thats so dark its beautiful
its a beauty that’s so hard to see when your gone

Nothing Left To Holler

Nothing left to holler
Nothing left to scream
To beam from your cheek bones
To glean from my body
To make you feel new
But it’s true I can still make you feel
beautiful

You grew eyes and saw
Me suffer through the night
Breathing like a fire
Like a tired, expired wish
And then another one
Wish and wish till you’ve no eyelashes left to kiss
Me like a butterfly
Or to shield your eyes
From the gritty city streets
Sometimes it gets so deep
I feel like it will keep
My head from speaking to my feet
And I won’t be able to run
Though its unclear what it would be from

Nothing left to hurdle
Nothing new to sew
Nothing that is dreamlike
That is reciprocal
Can’t wait to go home
But I don’t want to go
To avoid the inevitable
Avoid the death of shelter
Of warmth
It’s been so cold
At the solstice of the sun
There’s nothing to breathe about
Nothing to say
Unless of course you’ve forgotten the hidden decay
Tucked inside these words
They make my heart bleed
It seeps through my teeth
To the breach of unity
Oh my please
There will always be always be always be something to forgive.

So please forgive me
For being naïve
If we leave this place
There will be nothing left to…

Oh, So Sweetly

Before you speak
Realize that what you say
Will echo in my head and heart forever
So say it sweetly
Oh, so sweetly
I just can’t take it any other way today

Follow me up
The staircase, but beware
If this bundle awakes I will break
I will crumble
So step up sweetly
Oh, so sweetly
He’ll wake if you step any other way

My body burns with fatigue
With obscene disbelief at
The distance it takes us to touch
And plunge into each other’s love
My mind stutters with wonder
With blunders of tongue to teeth
Of hope cast asunder to fates that
We always seem to fall under
We always seem to fall under

So lift up my shirt
Undo my buckle
My ribs are like a radiator
Yours are of ivory
So look on me sweetly
Oh, so sweetly
And let me know that I’ll be ok

The streetlights are so bright
The sky looks like sick ink
Like and ominous soup
I hope tomorrow
That it shines sweetly
Oh, so sweetly
And lets me be a bit stronger than today.

Tyree

The Argument was quick And ended in a flash A tiny piece of metal Rocketing from a shaft Piercing his rib cage The blood was not a bath Just a stain to remain On the sidewalk For days Right outside the window Though the shot was hardly heard absorbed inside the car Sounded like a fire work I’ve never been so near To something so absurd As the ending of two lives For no reason to be learned There is a rage that exists That’s too swift to be lifted From someone who’s holding a gun No amount of self-defense No collection of crimes put down Could ever stack up against The lives that have been put out By the readiness of a pistol Yet no amendment is as proud Or as loud as the one that lets killing And violence abound Oh how it abounds There was a rally to debate The meaning and the purposethrough a megaphoneand lots of racial slurs I covered my son’s ear for the first time in his two years lots of things were mentioned like how the press was spun how it wasn’t called what it was the cops were racist this was a racial crime but nobody talked about taking guns off the streets or of families or of peace nobody talked of peace they talked of power of legacy of hate and of rage There is a Rage that exists that’s too swift to be lifted From someone who’s holding a gun.

Something To React Against

I know our eyes and hearts are young
But they’re not naive
And they can see and feel
That its long been time for you to leave
Time for you to bleed

The good thing about people like you
is you never let us sleep
Never let us sit up on the fence
You just give us something to react against

And I can promise you there’ll be hell to pay
Just remember that the world needs enemies and that is why you are hear.
That is all you are to me
You are something to fear.
You act like there is no consequence
But you’re just giving us something to react against

I’ve felt God when I first held my son
I’ve seen God at the foot of a mountain
I’ve tasted him in the ocean
But I’ve never heard him in the sound of a gun

Freedom of religion means freedom from religion
Your God is not mine
Your country is not mine
and I have freedom from you

I can promise you that there will be hell to pay
Just remember that the world needs enemies and that is why you are hear.
That is all you are to me
You are something to fear

You think yourself an ambulence
but you’re just giving us something to react against

All Lyrics By Michael Kiley, Copyright 2007 M & M Free Music

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