Lyrics
Private Pockets
Sorry my dear
I fear
When you shed your tears
In my chest
I did my best
To feel
But nothing was there
Now I’m scared that the wearing
My patience has taken
Will break and mistake-n
My love for you
To be
Some enemy
To be squeezed to death
By the heavy, heavy breath that carries us
From day to day
It hurts me so when you act like I don’t know you
Our fights leave wounds
We assume
Will close up
And melt away into the night
We can heal them
With wishes
And deep tongue kisses
But they open too soon
And the pain is now trite
It spikes like all patterns
It batters what matters to dust
And what’s real blows away
We need our dreams to wed
Like we did when we said forever
Feels so far away
It hurts me so when you act like I don’t know you
Builders
Today you are builders
Of pillars and of gates
With locks that may look like hearts
Others may look like shapes
So utterly confounding
Your heads may begin to ache
May begin to ache
And the architecture may get so tall
That you both begin to quake
But some pins will be left unlatched
Others will open with a shimmy or a shake
And if when you’re both standing tall the pillars begin to break
Know that no matter whose heavier the heart
You both fall at the same rate
You both land safe in the same place
I’ve little else to tell you
For I am just a child
When it comes to building
Oh, but I can use my eyes
And in my fawning, tumbling stages
They’ve grown sharper if not wise
They see a calm and peaceful happiness
In someone they have known their whole lives
There’s too much joy to come
Too much joy to come!
And your giddiness will shine over all of this
Soaking us in your loveliness leaving us with the remembrance that love is bigger than all of us but without us it would not exist oh its all too strange to understand so just stand there and hold hands and know that we love you as much as we can.
Virgin Mouth
These sheets reek with weeks
Of lust and fatigue
You could sharpen your teeth on the
Things that we need
But are fleeting the moment
Our feet hit the ground
And we drown in
Waves of days crashing down
We sink underwater
Blinking like stars
Garnering truth in
The Invisible parts
Where skin stops
And forever begins
Listen to the blood flow
Glowing with where we have been
I feel so displaced
This time is laced
with hope unbound from
The shackles of mistakes
From body aches and the
Sun spinning round
I’m Sounding like a virgin
Who’s never learned to use his mouth
Don’t let your thoughts be an undertow
Dragging us down
It’s all we can do to
Keep the water out
I Never Knew
I never knew that being in love would mean so many moments letting someone down
And I know that now
But I still jump in the water, I’m still am ready to drown
I never knew that being in love would mean watching myself turn into what I hate
Of realizing fate
But still I fall in the trap, I still go for the bait.
I must be sick
Or thick
Or whipped into thinking I’m not worthy of this
I love you so
It makes me wonder why I feel like- I will never know
How to be with you alone instead
Of sharing you with all this dread
That hangs around like shrouds inside my head
The heart is a muscle and to grow it must tear oh no but the trouble with hearts is they shrinks when their scared
I never knew that being in love would mean so many moments feeling alone and amiss
Of wanting to be kissed
My eyes are still too slow, I still fall for the trick
I never knew that being in love
Would mean seeing my mother each time my child cries
Right around the corners of the eyes
But I still break his heart just like I broke hers
All those times. But don’t you worry, they still gets to break mine.
It chills me to the quick
The taste of my own spit
Splitting these words on which I slip
To try to fit
Together tight as knit
Has nothing at all to do with synthesis
You bowl me over day after day
Still I find something bad to say
To make you shiver the night away wide awake
The heart is a muscle and to grow, it must tear oh no, but the trouble with hearts is they shrink when they’re scared
Beyond Your Control
Sitting by the river just angel boy and me
He kept handing me rocks in groups of three
(one for him, one for mama, one for me)
He’d point for me to throw them, impatiently
So he could see how big the world could be
All that’s beyond your control
Is not there to haunt you
Nicky, I didn’t bring you here to wet your eyes
A compromise at best, I’d even settle for a shy
Glimpse over your shoulder, or twist of you thigh
Do I still have the power to make you sigh?
All that’s beyond your control
Is not there to haunt you
Fears are like children
If they sit inside
They rot to the core
They stop wondering why
They were made to begin with
And eat you alive
Is our lot in life to be pulled like the tide
That sweeps ‘round our ankles
Like the breath of our child
Stirs up our worry
Each time he cries
Simon is was so much easier to hear your heart
When you were inside your mother, in the dark
When you were born I could see it through your skin like a spark
A sharp shape made of steel and stars
All that’s beyond your control
Is not there to haunt you.
Moment For The Future
Oh no, wet eyes
Here comes the shine
That made you mine
Stockpiles of hurt
Cast like a curse
You’re making it worse
And you feel so cheap
Swallowed in her
You feel incomplete
The shadow that lurks
Over your new year
Is getting so big
It’s bursting at the sutures
So why do you think you keep on trading the moment for the future
Laughter just burns
Breathing is churning
Your stomach in turn
Your mouth tastes so bad
Your Teeth are a drag
You make yourself gag
And you feel like this has happened before
Yes, You feel like you’ve woken up on this floor
Every morning since the day you were born
War torn with no clue you’re
Trading the moment for the future
I’ve got to start living my life better
Or at least get more selective in what I remember
What do you seek
Drink after drink
Till you can’t even think
Whispers are all you hear
Inside your ears
Inside your tears
You squeeze so hard
It’s leaving a bruise
You wait every day for some bit of news
To set you free but it never comes true
Why can’t you see nothing will be new
While you keep on trading the moment for the future.
Remember To Breathe
Remember to breathe
To steal the air to your blood
Let it build a peace
In your heart that will lift you up over the flood
Of the terror you thought was dissolved
It’s not salt in the water
It’s silt
And it rests at the bottom
Lurking inside you, ready to cloud your view
My head is so low
I keep missing the sky
It only shows
Is in reflections
Of pools of tears
That I cry
I don’t want to be a thief
Oh No, Not anymore
Running my recurring dreams
To recall a youth I’ve tried so hard to destroy
Shivering in the skin of myself as a child
Prying myself out of darkness
Begging the light to stream in and colors to fill my eyes
And leave me with the shining smile of flight
My heart is so low
It beats with a sigh
It keeps pumping though
With the hope that
It makes it through another night
My head is so low
I keep missing the sky
It only shows
Is in reflections
Of pools of tears
That I cry
Burn Like I Burn
When I dream of this place
It will start with your taste
And the fiery rush, the flush of your face
Then out to the shapes
Cut in the sky
If only for us to
Ache as we trace them
Then return to my hips
Cutting into your thighs
Where white disappears
deep into places
Softer than before
As skin sometimes does
If only to turn pink and be tasted
Oh, it’s been a long, lonely time
Since I’ve seen you shine
Is it that our love
Was too big to remain
inside of us
was far too big for two
to contain
and so from some darkened
place he was created
but he tasted love and wanted more than we had to give him
and now we’re hiding
no not searching for
what’s missing
searching for what got lost
how does love get lost?
And how will it feel
When the sky has gone grey
when the clouds appear dark as today??
And how will we peel
Away the brutally frayed moments of
Of kisses covered in tears
The sleepless hours
swallowed by the night
sheepish
breaths consumed by fear
And where is the time
Of the twinkling of stars
That has less to do with love
Than it has to do with hearts
Oh, Its been a long, lonely time
Of lonely nights
Spent side by side
If we keep opening
Oh no, not choking, I’m hoping
We can know that love is not something
that floats back from a far that it must be recreated
like before
That no hours that tower over our heads
can flower lets bow and be done with them
And I will shower you with pretty sonnets
like comets that burn as they
enter the atmosphere as shards
Of heat and of
Fire that sear when they touch
Like I burn when I enter you
Like I burn when I enter you.
All lyrics by Michael Kiley, Copyright 2008 M & M Free Music
Caterpillar-Cocoon-Butterfly
Cartwheels
Lost in infinite turns
Hiding inside of each other
Nesting like jaybirds
Magnetized, embracing our haste
Laughing in the face of
Tomorrow’s unfettered bravado
I am bound to your core
in willing absolutes
Closer than atoms
And when the pressure depresses your pleasure and censures your soul, your eyes cry in mine lovely and wide and sink into my heart like a stone and let in the size of it all.
The Part I Hate Most
This is the part I hate most
you’re already feeling like a ghost
a hostess escorting me to a table
filled with air
mirrors everywhere
for me to feast on this familiar infinity
perhaps this one time
I’ll look myself straight in the eye
and smile, laugh, even love
whats bouncing back at me
and not see these desperate eyes
searching for empathy
There’s something about this world thats so dark its beautiful
its a beauty that’s so hard to see when your gone
You always take with you the part that I like best
the rest is just testing the world
and all my immunities
seem to be so pointless and shallow
and I’m free to feel nothing but hollow
This is the part I hate most
When nothing we feel really shows
and the pressure of the precious lasting moments
explode into dirt and fog and we’ve blown another day just fighting about love
There’s something about this world thats so dark its beautiful
its a beauty that’s so hard to see when your gone
Nothing Left To Holler
Nothing left to holler
Nothing left to scream
To beam from your cheek bones
To glean from my body
To make you feel new
But it’s true I can still make you feel
beautiful
You grew eyes and saw
Me suffer through the night
Breathing like a fire
Like a tired, expired wish
And then another one
Wish and wish till you’ve no eyelashes left to kiss
Me like a butterfly
Or to shield your eyes
From the gritty city streets
Sometimes it gets so deep
I feel like it will keep
My head from speaking to my feet
And I won’t be able to run
Though its unclear what it would be from
Nothing left to hurdle
Nothing new to sew
Nothing that is dreamlike
That is reciprocal
Can’t wait to go home
But I don’t want to go
To avoid the inevitable
Avoid the death of shelter
Of warmth
It’s been so cold
At the solstice of the sun
There’s nothing to breathe about
Nothing to say
Unless of course you’ve forgotten the hidden decay
Tucked inside these words
They make my heart bleed
It seeps through my teeth
To the breach of unity
Oh my please
There will always be always be always be something to forgive.
So please forgive me
For being naïve
If we leave this place
There will be nothing left to…
Oh, So Sweetly
Before you speak
Realize that what you say
Will echo in my head and heart forever
So say it sweetly
Oh, so sweetly
I just can’t take it any other way today
Follow me up
The staircase, but beware
If this bundle awakes I will break
I will crumble
So step up sweetly
Oh, so sweetly
He’ll wake if you step any other way
My body burns with fatigue
With obscene disbelief at
The distance it takes us to touch
And plunge into each other’s love
My mind stutters with wonder
With blunders of tongue to teeth
Of hope cast asunder to fates that
We always seem to fall under
We always seem to fall under
So lift up my shirt
Undo my buckle
My ribs are like a radiator
Yours are of ivory
So look on me sweetly
Oh, so sweetly
And let me know that I’ll be ok
The streetlights are so bright
The sky looks like sick ink
Like and ominous soup
I hope tomorrow
That it shines sweetly
Oh, so sweetly
And lets me be a bit stronger than today.
Tyree
The Argument was quick And ended in a flash A tiny piece of metal Rocketing from a shaft Piercing his rib cage The blood was not a bath Just a stain to remain On the sidewalk For days Right outside the window Though the shot was hardly heard absorbed inside the car Sounded like a fire work I’ve never been so near To something so absurd As the ending of two lives For no reason to be learned There is a rage that exists That’s too swift to be lifted From someone who’s holding a gun No amount of self-defense No collection of crimes put down Could ever stack up against The lives that have been put out By the readiness of a pistol Yet no amendment is as proud Or as loud as the one that lets killing And violence abound Oh how it abounds There was a rally to debate The meaning and the purposethrough a megaphoneand lots of racial slurs I covered my son’s ear for the first time in his two years lots of things were mentioned like how the press was spun how it wasn’t called what it was the cops were racist this was a racial crime but nobody talked about taking guns off the streets or of families or of peace nobody talked of peace they talked of power of legacy of hate and of rage There is a Rage that exists that’s too swift to be lifted From someone who’s holding a gun.
Something To React Against
I know our eyes and hearts are young
But they’re not naive
And they can see and feel
That its long been time for you to leave
Time for you to bleed
The good thing about people like you
is you never let us sleep
Never let us sit up on the fence
You just give us something to react against
And I can promise you there’ll be hell to pay
Just remember that the world needs enemies and that is why you are hear.
That is all you are to me
You are something to fear.
You act like there is no consequence
But you’re just giving us something to react against
I’ve felt God when I first held my son
I’ve seen God at the foot of a mountain
I’ve tasted him in the ocean
But I’ve never heard him in the sound of a gun
Freedom of religion means freedom from religion
Your God is not mine
Your country is not mine
and I have freedom from you
I can promise you that there will be hell to pay
Just remember that the world needs enemies and that is why you are hear.
That is all you are to me
You are something to fear
You think yourself an ambulence
but you’re just giving us something to react against